Method to my madness.

So i just heard that one of my friends is going to Europe for 6 months... yes i know... that bitch. This just further intensifies my itch to travel, to see whats really out there. New York City is calling me and it's hard to not answer the call, im getting tired of deleting its messages on my machine. >< What can i do? No one will understand me if I just decide to pack up and leave, people are gonna think im insane and lost my mind. Sometimes i think that im going through some sort of early mid-life crisis or the total opposite in that I still need to grow-up. Every day i'm inching my way closer to my graduation and im realizing more and more that work life freaks the hell out of me. The idea that my life from then on is gonna be this horrid 8-5 nightmare filled with income taxes and pension plans; only awaiting the sweet release of death makes moving forward almost impossible. I feel as though every essay I write, every exam that I pass, and every class that I attend brings this inevitable "doomsday" closer and closer. I wish i could press a button and life would come at a standstill, no pressure no stress just living.

Oh and btw yes it’s late... its 5am a new record in blogging. Now to try and get some sleep.

The dawn breaks, my eyes shut.

On we go.